Give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread - Proverbs 30:8

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Feeling Like A Fraud

When it comes to living simply, I feel like a fraud lately. I deeply desire to live as simply as possible, to even call myself an aspiring minimalist. Yet when I look around my home and at my life, I feel like a fraud.

I know it's a journey and I'm still at the beginning of it. I know I've already come a long way. I know that this is a personal journey ~ one I feel God calling me to.

But right now I feel like I'm going uphill. Everywhere I turn there is stuff. Stuff that needs to be put away. Stuff that needs to be organized. Stuff that is keeping me from doing what I want to do.

I don't need pats on the back letting me know that I need to keep going. I have discipline. I have the will to get there. Sometimes it just helps to admit my weakness.

So right now I feel like a fraud. If you walked through my front door you would likely think that my home is organized and uncluttered. But if you spent a day with me, you would see how much time I spend keeping it / getting it that way. Time I would rather spend doing things that really matter.

Big sigh.

6 comments:

  1. At my Weight Watchers meeting today the leader asked us to list what we need to pack for the holiday weekend. I said, "self forgiveness," and got applauded. Sounds like you made need some of that, too.

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    1. spot on, Linda. Thank you for that.

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  2. I know the feeling.

    Just remember:

    1. Baby Steps
    2. Celebrate small victories

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  3. Hi Jill, You need to get this book! (I know, the reading pile grows ...) This is a "quick read." Here's part of review that came out just today from LJ Earnest at simpleproductivity.com:

    "Every now and then I run across a gem of a book that inspires me, entertains me, and motivates me to get up and do something. ENUFF: Eliminate the Needless, Useless, Foolish, and Frivolous by Kate Carpenter is one of those books... I really enjoyed this quick read. I would read a bit, and be inspired to go do something. And any book that actually inspires me to take action is one I would recommend that everyone read."

    And I wrote the book! Email me at nuffer@yahoo.com if you'd like me to send you a coupon code for a FREE copy of my eBook on Smashwords. I really think it might help! :-)

    All the best - Kate Carpenter

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  4. Hi there _ I just discovered your blog and love it!

    I think most minimalists feel like a fraud sometimes. I have gotten rid of a LOT of stuff, but my friend came over and I could tell she was judging me because one room was a mess. It actually was stuff that I was sorting to give away but I don't think she believed me. :-) Minimalism is definitely an ongoing process, but I look at where I was 2 years ago and I have let go of so much. I think your perspective shifts over time, so you always think you can get rid of more, but that's probably a good thing. I also think that blogging about minimalism holds you to a higher standard where you feel you need to be a role model to aspiring minimalists, and that's not a bad thing either. Keeps me from backsliding into consumerism.

    Looking forward to reading more of your blog!

    Sheri

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    1. Thanks for the encouragement, Sheri. What you've said really hits home about how I've been feeling.

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